Crap.

Missed a computers exam. First time missing an exam. Of course it has to be the one class which the professor's completely unreasonable. She says I can retake it at 12:00 today for a maximum of 50 percent.

Shit.

The Cube

So my friend Jonny just ran this personality test on me. It was called 'The Cube'. Basically, he asked me to picture a plain landscape, with a sky and desert separated by a horizon. He then told me that there was a cube in my vision. He asked me what size the cube was, what color it was, what it was made out of and if you could see through it. Then he told me to picture a ladder. He asked me where it was in the landscape, how it looked, if it was sturdy and if any of the steps were missing. Then he told me there was a horse. He asked me where the horse was with respect to the cube, what color it was and any noticeable features of it. Next came the storm. He told me to picture a storm and describe it. The final part of the personality test was flowers. He told me that there were flowers in this desert and asked me how they looked, where they were and how many there were.

I told him that my cube was pretty big, right in front of me, floating above the ground and made out of a glass-like material that could not be seen through. I pictured a sturdy, wooden, firm ladder that leaned closely against the cube, but only reached up 2/3 of the height. For the horse, I saw a brown horse. It was a cute horse. It had a mount on it, but there was no one riding it. It was right by one of the corners of the cube. For flowers, I said there were a ring of flowers around me. White flowers that were pretty small in size. The test ended with me picturing a small storm, far away from the cube and stationery.

Supposedly the cube represents myself. A big cube represents a confident person with a pretty large ego. Cubes that float represent intelligent individuals who are usually more creative and witty. The fact that the cube was glass means that I'm easily understood and try to get my point across the others. The glass being shiny and not see-through means that I stand out in a crowd.

The ladder represents my friends. If the ladder is leaning against the cube, it means you have friends that you can depend on. A sturdy ladder means that your friendships are solid and some of them will most likely last a lifetime. The ladder also represents your pathway to your goals. It's weird that my ladder didn't reach the top of my cube and only 2/3 of the height. The book didn't specify exactly what that meant.

The horse represents my lover. If it has a mount, it means that my lover will most likely be hard-working, domesticated and a romantic. The fact that it is close to the cube means that she will most likely stay loyal.

The flowers represent my offspring... Supposedly I want 10 kids that ring around me closely. That's definitely incorrect.

The storm represents my problems. The fact that it is small and far away means that I mostly have no troubles. As of now, my life seems to be going pretty smoothly, void of problems.

The ladder thing really got me thinking... Hm...

Sorry

I feel like I'm neglecting some people.

Halloween

Halloween at college is absolutely ridiculous. Girls wear little-to-nothing, disregarding the frigid temperatures and countless eye-rapings. Drunkards roam the streets, making complete fools of themselves and dashing through traffic. Partiers pack the buses, not afraid to push and shove, and randomly bursting into well-known chants and songs.

It's funny. Today is actually Halloween but not too much is going on. It appears everyone has become mentally, physically, and 'liver-ly' exhausted due to the nonstop partying of the past three nights. Everyone is just crashing on their beds and taking much-needed rests.

Once upon a time, when we were all good kids, Halloween was just a holiday linked with entertaining costumes and free candy. It was a time where friends could just travel door to door and be rewarded with candy simply by knocking and muttering 'trick or treat'!

It's truly amazing how things change as we grow up.

A thought

It'd be nice to meet someone like me.

Update

I've decided that I may start blogging again... even if it's just a post from time to time. It's a nice place to just throw out all my ideas and thoughts and figure out certain aspects of my life.

Well this is my first blog post as a college student. College is a really interesting place. You can pretty much do whatever you want, whenever you want. You can just open the door, walk down the hall, and find someone to chill with, talk to or even just do homework with. Meshing into Rutgers wasn't a problem for me. Getting to know people has always been easy for me, and I realized just how easy it is to make friends once Rutgers started. At college, you can find every single type of person in the world. There are so many different personalities, cliques and niches that its nearly impossible to not find your respective 'group'. With this, looking around the campus, I always see so many kids that just gave off awkward, eccentric vibes. It's kind of made me feel sympathetic for these kids because some of them are really nice people... They're just too shy and socially-inept to properly integrate themselves into a new environment and make friends.

I've been keeping in touch with a few of my high school friends... It's hard though. Sometimes I'll get a text from someone from high school and just unintentionally overlook it, because I'm so sucked into college life. When I'm sitting in the dining hall, eating with one of my friends, I'm not going to pull out my cellphone and start texting one of my high school friends. To be honest though, I don't miss any of my high school friends. Only a handful, maybe. It's only when I'm talking to them or catching up with them that I begin to reminisce and experience those nostalgic, bittersweet feelings. I really can't wait for breaks and seeing how my friends have changed, grown, or even regressed. It's going to be fun when we all come together and share our 'college adventures'. I'll try not to disappoint.

College has been pretty crazy - I think I've kind of lost myself in it. If I was to rewind two or three years, I would have never expected myself to have turned out the way I am now. I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing, but I'm enjoying myself. One thing I'm certain of is that college has made me have no shame. From last summer until now, I have become completely shameless - no matter how 'shameful' my actions are.

So many unbelievable things have happened since August 28th, move-in day. I feel like I've been here forever, experienced so much and had so much fun, even though it has not even been two months yet.

Hm, well that's all I feel like writing about for now. Don't worry, you'll be hearing from me again.

August 13th

I am pretty happy.

I am also pretty disappointed about a few things though.

I think once college starts I'll be 100 percent happy... hopefully.