Monday, December 6, 2010
Me
It's not true. You do not learn something new every single day. Some days are just filled with meaningless fluff and mindless babble, void of anything worth taking note of. I've been having quite a few of those days recently. Today I learned something though. I learned something really important about myself.
Decisions decisions decisions.
Hm. I guess some choices in life are pretty important... I've made a few of these choices without much thought, and I think that's a pretty bad thing.
At least this decision isn't too important. Now that I think about it, at least this decision isn't even important.
Last night we smashed like 200 fortune cookies glued together. I searched through a few of the fortunes and found a really deep one. Or at least I thought it was deep when I was completely shitfaced.
At least this decision isn't too important. Now that I think about it, at least this decision isn't even important.
Last night we smashed like 200 fortune cookies glued together. I searched through a few of the fortunes and found a really deep one. Or at least I thought it was deep when I was completely shitfaced.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
You're nothing special.
I'm nothing special. I'm pretty much mediocre. I'm stupid at best. I'm never going to amount to anything.
You're nothing special. You're pretty much mediocre. You're stupid at best. You're never going to amount to anything.
What a negative mentality you might say but it's true nevertheless. No one in my graduating class will amount to anything. Most likely no one I will meet in my lifetime will amount to anything. No one will contribute anything even near substantial to society or have their mark on history. No one has a unique enough personality, impressive enough intellect or canny enough wit to consider themselves special or even note-worthy. There are too many people in this world to consider any one of us important. People need to understand how insignificant we are.
So let me take the easy route through life and just bum. Why waste time working when, in the end, none of us will achieve anything timeless?
You're nothing special. I'm nothing special. Quit lying to yourself - it's unhealthy.
You're nothing special. You're pretty much mediocre. You're stupid at best. You're never going to amount to anything.
What a negative mentality you might say but it's true nevertheless. No one in my graduating class will amount to anything. Most likely no one I will meet in my lifetime will amount to anything. No one will contribute anything even near substantial to society or have their mark on history. No one has a unique enough personality, impressive enough intellect or canny enough wit to consider themselves special or even note-worthy. There are too many people in this world to consider any one of us important. People need to understand how insignificant we are.
So let me take the easy route through life and just bum. Why waste time working when, in the end, none of us will achieve anything timeless?
You're nothing special. I'm nothing special. Quit lying to yourself - it's unhealthy.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Back at college
It sure feels nice. Seeing everyone over break was pretty refreshing. It's nice to see that everyone is doing well.
There's such a huge difference between high school friends and college friends. College friends seem to be the friends of 'now' as high school friends seem to be the friends of 'before'. To me, it feels as if high school friends, even if they haven't talked, will still always be friends. It's a pretty static system. You're not usually going to hear about two old high school friends, now in college, severing ties. However, college is a whole new environment. People come and go. Individuals who you find interesting and entertaining may become dull and boring in time. College friends are pretty dynamic, maybe it's because we're seeing these people every single day.
College friends and high school friends... It's such an obvious topic. Come graduation, everyone goes through the bittersweet phase of wondering whether or not they will keep in touch with their high school friends. Everyone wonders whether or not they will make new college friends who both like them and they like. Don't worry though... High school friends have this special bond where no matter how long they've been apart, they will always be able to come back and have amazingly captivating and real talks. And in college, there are enough personalities, cliques and quirks for anyone to find his or her proper place.
I wonder though - Which friends should be more important to me...
There's such a huge difference between high school friends and college friends. College friends seem to be the friends of 'now' as high school friends seem to be the friends of 'before'. To me, it feels as if high school friends, even if they haven't talked, will still always be friends. It's a pretty static system. You're not usually going to hear about two old high school friends, now in college, severing ties. However, college is a whole new environment. People come and go. Individuals who you find interesting and entertaining may become dull and boring in time. College friends are pretty dynamic, maybe it's because we're seeing these people every single day.
College friends and high school friends... It's such an obvious topic. Come graduation, everyone goes through the bittersweet phase of wondering whether or not they will keep in touch with their high school friends. Everyone wonders whether or not they will make new college friends who both like them and they like. Don't worry though... High school friends have this special bond where no matter how long they've been apart, they will always be able to come back and have amazingly captivating and real talks. And in college, there are enough personalities, cliques and quirks for anyone to find his or her proper place.
I wonder though - Which friends should be more important to me...
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Me
When it comes to girls, most of my friends know that I'm a pretty picky guy. I'm overly skeptical, critical and judgmental. It's hard for me to think that a girl is genuinely attractive or has a personality that is controlled yet spontaneous, space-y yet down-to-earth, confident yet vulnerable, intelligent yet silly, and loving yet sane. I usually end up over-analyzing things and getting hung up on things others would find quite insignificant. For some reason, to me, everything ends up being significant - even the little things - when it deals with someone close to me.
Soo. I'm surprised right now.
Soo. I'm surprised right now.
Ahhh
Today was so nice.
Woke up from sleeping over Brian's house and headed over the IHOP with the group. Got brunch and then went to the high school with Sidd to visit the little high-schoolers and silly teachers. Delivered Amy a McDonalds ice cream sundae during her IPLE class as Brodman's cartoonish face turned slightly red and irritated. Hurried out of L7 to visit Sanellz, the best teacher at EBHS. Had a nice talk with her... reminiscing of the good old Waksman and period 2/3 biology class. I swear, I dropped the F-bomb at least four times in front of her... I'm pretty sure I kind of told her to fuck off at one point, jokingly - She didn't seem to care. Visited some more teachers but then got kicked out of the school by an old, senile hall aid who threatened to 'put us in jail for trespassing'. After that I played basketball at Will's. Rolled my ankle but whatever - it's okay. Spent the rest of the night finding a bunch of people :]
Visiting the high school was really interesting. It's amazing how differently you're looked at when you're in college. You seem to have a certain aura or presence that makes little high-schoolers look up to you. It was a really nice experience. The teachers talk to you in such a chill attitude and act genuinely interested in your life.
The best part of the day was at night though. Visited a few people, got dinner with one of them and then stopped by Michow's house to watch a movie. Then found Caroline. It was so nice seeing her after so long. It put this irreversible smile on my face.
Woke up from sleeping over Brian's house and headed over the IHOP with the group. Got brunch and then went to the high school with Sidd to visit the little high-schoolers and silly teachers. Delivered Amy a McDonalds ice cream sundae during her IPLE class as Brodman's cartoonish face turned slightly red and irritated. Hurried out of L7 to visit Sanellz, the best teacher at EBHS. Had a nice talk with her... reminiscing of the good old Waksman and period 2/3 biology class. I swear, I dropped the F-bomb at least four times in front of her... I'm pretty sure I kind of told her to fuck off at one point, jokingly - She didn't seem to care. Visited some more teachers but then got kicked out of the school by an old, senile hall aid who threatened to 'put us in jail for trespassing'. After that I played basketball at Will's. Rolled my ankle but whatever - it's okay. Spent the rest of the night finding a bunch of people :]
Visiting the high school was really interesting. It's amazing how differently you're looked at when you're in college. You seem to have a certain aura or presence that makes little high-schoolers look up to you. It was a really nice experience. The teachers talk to you in such a chill attitude and act genuinely interested in your life.
The best part of the day was at night though. Visited a few people, got dinner with one of them and then stopped by Michow's house to watch a movie. Then found Caroline. It was so nice seeing her after so long. It put this irreversible smile on my face.
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