High off caffeine

So I started studying for my calc final a few hours ago. Went to the bathroom to take a dump and thought it was okay to just spit on the bathroom floor since the custodians would clean it up. Went to the bathroom again later and, forgetting about my spit, stepped on it.

Karma's a bitch, and my karma is pretty shitty.

College

Don't worry guys. College is like 30 percent you and 70 percent luck. It's so random. Do you really think a college is able to make n number of correct choices when n is as big as how many students are applying to that college? Just because you don't get into one college doesn't mean anything. Just wait for your other decisions to come in and everything should be okay if you're a good applicant.

You do play a factor in college decisions, but luck does too.

Finals

Finals are coming up.

I have a computers exam this Friday, and three exams next week. As of now, I have A's in all my classes, and I'd like to keep it that way. Hopefully I can pull it off and do well on all of my finals, though I am quite reluctant to study. I'm pretty sure I'm just going to have to brush up on a little bit of chem and look over some of the crappy memorization junk in calc. Yep, after these finals the semester is over, and I can head back home - even though it'd be pretty fun to just stay at Rutgers and chill, too bad they close the dorms.

This weekend is the weekend that everyone is supposed to go partying since it's the weekend before most finals and the last time to go out before winter break. I dunno if I want to go out though. Too much bad stuffs. My health is going down the drain.

On a totally unrelated note, I've come to realize that I'm totally missing out...

Me

It's not true. You do not learn something new every single day. Some days are just filled with meaningless fluff and mindless babble, void of anything worth taking note of. I've been having quite a few of those days recently. Today I learned something though. I learned something really important about myself.

Decisions decisions decisions.

Hm. I guess some choices in life are pretty important... I've made a few of these choices without much thought, and I think that's a pretty bad thing.

At least this decision isn't too important. Now that I think about it, at least this decision isn't even important.

Last night we smashed like 200 fortune cookies glued together. I searched through a few of the fortunes and found a really deep one. Or at least I thought it was deep when I was completely shitfaced.

You're nothing special.

I'm nothing special. I'm pretty much mediocre. I'm stupid at best. I'm never going to amount to anything.

You're nothing special. You're pretty much mediocre. You're stupid at best. You're never going to amount to anything.

What a negative mentality you might say but it's true nevertheless. No one in my graduating class will amount to anything. Most likely no one I will meet in my lifetime will amount to anything. No one will contribute anything even near substantial to society or have their mark on history. No one has a unique enough personality, impressive enough intellect or canny enough wit to consider themselves special or even note-worthy. There are too many people in this world to consider any one of us important. People need to understand how insignificant we are.

So let me take the easy route through life and just bum. Why waste time working when, in the end, none of us will achieve anything timeless?

You're nothing special. I'm nothing special. Quit lying to yourself - it's unhealthy.

Hahah

If you're good at talking you can get anything you want.